So.....the last time I posted it was suppose to be a short hiatus but instead RL interfered. I apologize to you all for the prolong absense without much of a explanation beyond my needing to care for my ailing mother.

Late in the evening of this Mother's Day, Mama passed away ever so gently and softly. Since her passing it has been a time of settling affairs and mourning. Honestly I didn't even turn on my computers for months. I quit chatting with the bitches like I use to do every day. It was a effort to just get up each day in the morning. I will say though that I often thought of my lovely flist, my beloved bitches, the fandom, wondered and hoped that life was being good to you all.

So...what knocked me out of hiding. Last Monday I received a letter (real mail!!!)from Sweden. zaipixie wrote to me on behalf of herself, firehead30 and vl_redreign. It was lovely and touching and I couldn't get online fast enough to drop them a line and it was like old times. We exchanged emails all day and it was just the jump start that I needed I guess. And then today I received a lovely card from happier_bunny. I don't know. It just made me want to post and say hi and reconnect with you all, reconnect with the fandom. Reconnect with the fun and the joy that I would always feel when I would log in as either callie89 or at the bitchesofbritin journal. Cause frankly it's exhausting being sad all the time. It's not really my nature. I've lost family before, my brother Carrington and then my father both of whom I adored. But losing my mother, I wasn't ready for it or the aftermath. Going through her affairs and the estate, it really brought home the fact that I'm a orphan now. No one left of my people.

But I am doing much better now. Cillian is great. He and I are very solid and happy. And no we are not pregnant yet. Maybe next summer we will try. Professionally he is doing great. Myself I returned to work last month, part time only and still in the ER. We have settled in the Brick House (that's what we called the family home) for now. At some point I believe we will relocate possibly to the East Coast. Seems to be where Cil is leaning towards. Time will tell.

Okay...enough. I don't want to put you all to sleep here. Just wanted to say hello and look forward to bonding with you all again. I am tickled that so many of you did not give up on me and defriend me. That many of you left me little notes wishing me well. That means so much to me.

Edit......a special thank you to doppelgangerqaf and vl_redreign for the virtual gifts. My FIRST since I've come back. I am so happy tonight.